Modern Faerie Tales Page 3

  He saw her emerge from under the canopy of branches and smiled. His eyes seemed darker in the moonlight. “Were I you, I would stay clear of the Folk in the future. We are a capricious people, with little regard for mortals.”

  She looked at him again. There were scratches on his armor that she didn’t remember. Could he have been attacked? He could barely lift his head before—it was impossible to believe that he could have fought with something and won. “Did something happen?”

  His smile deepened, wiping the weariness from his face. His eyes glittered. “Don’t waste your questions.” Then the horse rode, moving like no living thing, darting between trees with unearthly speed and grace. Leaves flurried from kicks of its hooves. Moonlight glowed along its flanks.

  Before she could think, she was alone in the wood. Alone and shivering and proud of herself. She moved to retrieve her coat, and a glimmer of light caught her eye. The arrow.

  She knelt and picked up the branch with its iron tip. Her finger ran up the rough bark and touched the too-warm metal. A shudder went through her, and she dropped it back in the mud. The woods were suddenly menacing, and she walked as quickly as she could back toward the road. If she started running, she didn’t think she’d be able to stop.

  Kaye dug her feet into the muddy slope that marked the edge of her grandmother’s lawn and heaved herself up. She slid past the overflowing trash can, the broken-down Pinto, the rusted coffee cans wired together as a fence for a wilted herb garden.

  All the lights in the house seemed to be on, highlighting the grubby curtains. The television flickered in the living room.

  She opened the back door and walked into the kitchen. Pots and pans, crusted with food, were piled in the sink. She was supposed to wash them. Instead, she went to the cupboard and took out a bowl, filled it with milk, then put a piece of stale white bread on top of it. It would have to do, she thought as she carefully opened the door and set it on the step—after all, the only things likely to come for it anymore were neighborhood cats.

  Kaye crept into the living room.

  On the other side of the staircase, Ellen was sitting in front of the television, eating one of the miniature Snickers Grandma had bought for the trick-or-treaters. “Leave me the fuck alone,” she muttered to the drink in front of her.

  “You think I don’t know anything. Okay, you’re the smart one, right?” Kaye’s grandmother said in that too-sweet voice that pissed off Kaye so much. “If you’re so smart, then how come you’re all alone? How come the only one to take you in is your old, stupid mother?”

  “I heard you the first million fucking times you said it.”

  “Well, you’re going to hear it again,” Kaye’s grandmother said. “Where is your daughter tonight? It’s almost one in the morning! Do you even care that she’s out gallivanting around who knows where, trying her damnedest to turn out just like—”

  “Don’t you start in on my daughter!” Kaye’s mother said with surprising vehemence. “She’s just fine. You leave her out of your bitching.”

  Kaye bent her head down and tried to walk up the stairs as quickly and quietly as she could.

  She caught her own reflection in the hallway mirror, mascara and glitter eyeshadow smeared across her cheeks and under her eyes, running in crusted and glittering streaks that looked like they were made by tears. Her lipstick was smudged and dull, arching across her left cheek where she must have wiped it.

  Kaye turned to take a furtive look into the living room. Her mother caught her glance, rolled her eyes, and motioned her up the stairs with a furtive hand movement.

  “While she’s in this house she’s going to live by the same rules that you lived by. I don’t care that she’s spent the last six years in a rat-infested apartment with whatever hoodlums you took up with. From now on that girl’s going to be raised decent.”

  Kaye crept the rest of the way up and into her room. She closed the door as quietly as she could.

  The tiny white dresser and too-short bed seemed to belong to someone else. Her rats, Isaac and Armageddon, rustled in their fish tank on top of the old toy box.

  Kaye stripped off her clothes and, not caring about the wet or the mud or anything, climbed into bed and wrapped a blanket around herself. Kaye knew what obsession was like—she saw how her mother craved fame. She didn’t want what she would never have.

  But just for tonight, she allowed herself to think of him, to think of the solemn, formal way he had spoken to her, so unlike anyone else. She let herself think of his flashing eyes and crooked smile.

  Kaye slid down into sleep like it was water closing over her head.

  3

  A cigarette is the perfect type of perfect pleasure. It is exquisite, and it leaves one unsatisfied. What more can one want?

  —OSCAR WILDE, THE PICTURE OF DORIAN GRAY

  Kaye was standing in a little stream clutching a Barbie doll by its blond hair, the cool water tickling her toes. Heat beat down on her back, and she could smell green things and the rich mud of summer. She was nine.

  It made perfect dream sense, even though she knew that it hadn’t happened quite this way. The warm green memory was younger than nine. But in this patchwork dream, Spike sat on the carpet of moss that ran along the bank. He was sewing a doll’s dress and purse out of leaves. Lutie straddled the waist of a sitting Ken doll, her iridescent butterfly wings fluttering slightly while she sang bawdy songs that made nine-year-old Kaye giggle and blush at the same time.

  “I could pretend that he could bend,

  But I’m bound to be sad when he is unclad.

  A smooth plastic chest doesn’t make up for the rest;

  Even a boy-doll has to try to make a girl-doll sigh.”

  Gristle stood silently beside Kaye. Laughing, she turned to him, and he made to speak, but the only thing that dropped from his mouth was a single white stone. It splashed into the stream, settling along the bottom along with the other rocks, shining with a strange light.

  “A shiny plastic boy’s not a proper toy.

  Each and every girl’s got a pearl.”

  A squawk made Kaye look up suddenly. A crow had settled in the tree, black feathers shimmering with color, like gasoline floating on the surface of water. When the crow cocked its head down at her, its eyes were as pale as the stone.

  “Never mind that you can’t find

  The thing—he can’t even find his ding-a-ling!”

  The crow shifted its claws along the branch, then dropped into the air. A moment later she felt the scrape of claws along her wrist and the bite of its beak on her hand as her doll was pulled into the air.

  Kaye screamed and reached down to throw something at the bird. Her hand closed on something hard, and she hurled it without thinking.

  The crow spiraled into the cushion of trees, and Kaye ran toward it. The forest around her blurred, and she was suddenly looking down at the black shape. It was still, feathers ruffling slightly in the breeze. Her doll was there too, lying apart from the dead bird, and between them was a smooth white stone. The stone that Gristle had spoken.

  And then she woke up.

  Kaye’s mother was standing in the doorway of the bedroom holding a cordless phone. “I’ve been calling and calling you from downstairs. Janet’s on the phone.”

  “Uh-oh.” Kaye blinked through eyes crusty with day-old makeup. She stretched.

  The sun was alive again, glowing with fury at the night’s trickery at the hands of Mistress Moon. Flares of lemony light threatened her with a headache if she opened her eyes.

  “Rough night?” Kaye’s mother leaned against the doorframe and took a drag on her cigarette.

  Kaye rubbed her eyes. Her knuckles came away black and glittery.

  “Janet’s on the phone.” Kaye’s mother sounded both annoyed and amused at having to repeat herself. “You want me to tell her you’ll call her back?”

  Kaye shook her head and took the phone. “Hullo?” Her voice was rough.

  Ellen left t
he doorway, and Kaye heard her thump down the stairs.

  “What happened last night?” It took Kaye a few moments to understand what Janet was asking.

  “Oh. Nothing. Kenny tried to catch me, and my shirt ripped.”

  “Kaye! How come you ran out like that? I thought he’d done something terrible to you! We were fighting all night about it.”

  “I didn’t think you’d believe me,” Kaye said flatly.

  That must have sounded enough like best-friend contrition, because Janet’s tone softened. “Come on, Kaye. Of course I believe you.”

  Kaye struggled for what to say to the unexpected reprieve. “Are you okay?” Janet asked.

  “I met someone on the way home last night.” Kaye sat up in bed, realizing that she’d gone to bed with her bra, skirt, and muddy stockings still on. No wonder she felt uncomfortable.

  “You did?” Janet sounded surprised and skeptical. “A boy?”

  “Yeah,” Kaye said. She wanted to say it aloud, to hold on to it. Already her recollection of Roiben was blanched by the sun, the way a dream fades when you don’t write it down. “He had gray eyes and long hair.”

  “Like a metal head?”

  “Longer,” Kaye said. She wrapped the puke-pink comforter more tightly around her. Like everything else in her bedroom, it was slightly too small.

  “Weird. What’s his name?”

  “Robin,” Kaye said, a little smile on her face. She was glad Janet couldn’t see her right now—she was sure she looked idiotically happy.

  “Like Robin Hood? Are you for real? Did he hit on you?”

  “We just talked,” Kaye said.

  Janet sighed. “You didn’t meet anyone, did you? You’re making this up.”

  “He’s real,” Kaye said. He was real, the most real person she had met in a long time. Hyper real.

  “The party sucked anyway,” Janet said. “I almost kicked this girl’s ass. Dough kept telling me to chill, but I was too wasted and upset. Well, come over and I’ll tell you the rest.”

  “Sure, okay. I’ve got to get dressed.”

  “Okay, ’bye.” The phone clicked as Janet hung up. Kaye turned it off and dropped it on the comforter.

  Getting up, she looked around her bedroom. Her clothes lay in drifts on the floor, most still in the black garbage bags. All the furniture was the same as it had been when she was four, child-size white furniture, pink walls, and a reproachful, glass-eyed army of dolls arranged in the bookshelves.

  I have to find Gristle and Spike. She hadn’t ever needed to call them before. They’d always been around when she had needed them. But that was when she had been little, when she had believed in everything, before her legs stuck out over the end of the bed and she had to bend over to see her face in the dresser mirror. Kaye sighed. She guessed that she wasn’t really unicorn-pure anymore. Maybe that kind of thing mattered.

  Kaye stripped out of her clothes and found a worn pair of jeans and a blue G-Force T-shirt. In the bathroom, as she splashed cold water on her face and rubbed off last night’s makeup, she inspected herself. The purple dye she’d combed into her hair was already faded.

  She sighed again and pulled her hair up into ragged pigtails. Hey, if she looked ten again, maybe kid-loving faeries would come to talk to her.

  Her leopard coat was too soggy to wear. Kaye pulled on Lloyd’s leather jacket and checked the pockets. A couple of crumpled receipts, a faux-tortoiseshell guitar pick, loose change. Kaye pulled her hand out as though she’d been stung.

  There, sticking out of the pad of her finger, was a slim, brown thorn. It just figured that Lloyd would have something awful in his pocket. She pulled it out and sucked the tiny red dot on her finger. Then, dropping the thorn on her dresser, she went downstairs.

  Kaye’s mother was sitting at the kitchen table, flipping through a magazine. A fifth of gin was sitting uncapped on the table, and a cigarette had almost burned itself to ash on a plate beside her.

  “You going to Janet’s?” Ellen asked.

  “Yeah.”

  “You want some coffee before you go, honey? You don’t look so awake.”

  “I’m okay. Grandma’s gonna freak when she sees that plate.” Kaye didn’t even bother to mention the gin.

  Kaye’s mother leaned back in the wooden chair. “Don’t try to mommy your mommy,” she said. Still, Kaye worried. It wasn’t that Ellen didn’t drink sometimes, but she didn’t usually go straight from tying one on the night before to pouring booze into her coffee.

  “Heard from Lloyd?”

  Ellen shook her head. “Nah. I called a couple of old friends from Sweet Pussy, but they’ve all gone respectable.”

  Kaye laughed. She remembered Liz jumping around the stage in her amazing purple plastic catsuit like a glam-rock Julie Newmar. It was hard to picture what respectable would look like on her. “You going to get together?”

  “Maybe,” Ellen said airily. “Sue and Liz have some little hole-in-the-wall music store in Red Bank.”

  “That’s great.”

  Ellen sighed. “Whatever. I wonder when was the last time either one of them picked up a fucking instrument.”

  Kaye shook her head. It was kind of stupid to think that her mother would just give up on going back to the city, but she couldn’t help hoping. “Tell Grandma I won’t be home late.”

  “You come home when you want. I’m your mother.”

  “Thanks, Mom,” Kaye said, and walked out the door.

  The wind was blowing gusts of vivid, lipstick-colored leaves across the lawn. Kaye took a deep breath of cold air.

  “Lutie-loo,” she whispered into the wind. “Spike, Gristle . . . please come back. I need you.”

  I’ll just walk over to Janet’s. I’ll just go over to Janet’s like I said and then I’ll figure out a plan.

  Janet lived in a trailer park along the main road in back of the gas station where her older brother worked. She waved to him as she cut through the lot.

  Corny smiled grudgingly. His hair was a longish brown mop, cut too short in the front and too long in the back. He was wearing a denim jacket and dirty jeans. His skin was red in patches. He was exactly like she remembered him, only taller.

  Kaye headed behind the office of the gas station and jumped over some overgrown shrubs to the trailer park. The trailers were vehicles in name only—none of them had wheels, and most of them had fences and porches anchoring them with steel and cement to the firmament. She walked up a pebble road toward Janet’s trailer.

  Across the way, a brown-haired girl about Kaye’s age was hanging some wash. Behind her, an opulently fat man lounged in a hammock; skin gridded by the crisscrossed strings. A trio of dachshunds barked madly as they chased each other along a chain-link fence.

  Kaye banged on Janet’s screen door.

  “Come on in,” Janet called. Kaye could see her feet through the screen, flung over the edge of the grungy blue couch, toes maroon with polish. Wads of toilet paper were stuffed between them so they couldn’t quite touch.

  The door squeaked hideously as she opened it. Rust had stiffened the hinges where the white enamel was chipped off. The main room of the trailer was dark, the windows covered in drapes. Light flickered from three sources: the door, the dim amber kitchen light, and the television. On the screen, two women were screaming at one another in front of a studio audience. One of the women had rhinestone eyebrows.

  “Want to do your nails?” Janet asked. “I have a cool blue.”

  Kaye shook her head, although Janet probably didn’t see her do it. “Can I make some coffee?”

  “Sure, make me some too.” Janet stretched, pointing her shiny toes as she arched her back. She was wearing a boy’s sleeveless undershirt and daisy-print cotton panties. “I am totally hungover.”

  “Where’s everybody?”

  “Ma and The Husband are at the flea market. Corny’ll be back from work anytime now. You’ll never believe what she got me the last time she was out—a half shirt with rhinestone ca
ts on it! I mean—where would you even find something like that?”

  Kaye laughed. Janet’s mother collected all kinds of kitschy stuff, but especially all things Star Trek. The trailer walls were covered with collectable plates, framed fan art, and shadowboxed phasers and tricorders. A collection of Spock-related needlepoint throw pillows competed with Janet for couch space. “I saw Corny when I walked over. I don’t think he recognized me.”

  “He’s an asshole. All he does is sit in his room and jerk off. He’s probably gone nearsighted.”

  Kaye took two mugs down from the shelf and filled them with water from the tap. “Maybe I just don’t look the way I used to.” Kaye punched the keypad of the microwave and put the cups in. They spun on the greasy glass tray.

  “I guess.” Janet flipped through the channels and stopped on VH1.

  “So what happened last night?” Kaye knew that it would please Janet if she asked.

  Janet did, in fact, pull herself into a sitting position and turn down the sound on the TV. “Well, when we got to Fatima’s place, Aimee was, like, playing with Kenny’s hair, rubbing her hands all over it and saying how soft it was. She must have known we were fighting.”

  “I’m sorry.”

  “It’s cool.” Janet pressed a Live-Long-and-Prosper pillow to her chest. “So anyway I go up to her and start rubbing my hands through her hair and telling her how nice it felt, really going to town, and Marcus starts laughing. You know that weird, rumbling Buddha-belly laugh he has. So fucking loud.”

  “What did Kenny do?” Kaye wondered if Kenny hit on every girl he met. She was embarrassed that she’d let him touch her—sometimes she wondered about the sick part of herself that wanted to be liked, wanted it badly enough to be tempted to compromise herself to get it.

  “Nothing; he loves girls to fight over him.” Janet shook her head as if she were talking about an incorrigible child. “So she starts calling me psycho and dyke, not backing down at all, saying that she was just talking.”

  Kaye nodded. “Did you hit her?” The microwave beeped, and Kaye stirred instant-coffee “crystals” into both cups. A thin white foam formed on the surface.